lol I like my ex but he has a gf

So we dated for a few months and then broke up just because we were both busy and I didn’t want to lead him astray but then we still continued talking and flirting and everything just like we were still dating, even better than when we were. One night I was drunk and he confessed that he still really liked me but drunk me was dumb and started freaking out so I took the easier road so he wouldn’t get hurt and said we were friends.

A few weeks later, we’re still best friends and I like him so much but he started seeing this other girl cause he thought I didn’t feel the same.. I can’t even be friends with him now cause I’m just sad all the time because I know they’re everything we were

I know that it’s my fault for losing him and everything but I was gonna tell him

How I felt but then he started talking to this girl and I just want him to be happy

I’m scared that if I get drunk or just emotional I’m going to tell him how I actually feel