Not ready to be a mom

Today I was holding my 3 month old niece , and I just sat there while I was feeding her, looking at her and once I gave her back to her mom I just cried .

I’m 20 weeks and I’m just not ready to be a mom. I’m young , I’m 19, I got pregnant by someone I wasn’t dating yet, and he definitely doesn’t want to be with me now .

I’m so alone, I have nobody, and I just feel like I keep trying to tell myself I’ll be ok, but I’m really going to fall apart . I’m afraid I’m going to feel nothing for my baby.