I was raped. And I need advice.

I’ll keep this short because I’m writing through my tears right now.

My ex boyfriend raped me while we were in our relationship. On August 29 2018 he coerced next into having sex with him even though I told him no several times and that I wasn’t in the mood and that I just didn’t want to. I laid there as he had sex with me and I wasn’t enjoying it at all.

That ruined me. I can’t even have sex with my current boyfriend without thinking of it.

Matter of fact my ex “raped” me the whole relationship. I was 16 when he was 19 and then when I turned 17 he was 20. Age of consent in California is 18 which I am not.

I want to confront him. I want to tell him what he did to me. I want to tell the cops. Why the fuck does he get to be so happy and carefree after he fucking destroyed my life? Please help me. I don’t know what to do.

Edit: just so you guys know I do have counseling I have a therapist and I called her to message me back when she can