Some people will be judgemental of this post so that is why I've chose to stay anonymous.

I had a 3 year old and a 12 week old boy. I absolutely love my boys and wouldn't change them for the world. However I always imagined my life with 2 little girls I didn't want boys.

I obviously love my boys and when they arrived I loved them and wouldnt change them. I can't help but feel a bit envious when I see people with 2 girls or people that got one of each.

I know it's wrong to feel like this. I know as long as baby is healthy that's all that matters and some people aren't lucky to have babies at all.

It's hard to explain but I feel like when I'm older abd my boys move out I'll be left on my own and won't have a daughter to go shopping with etc. Also when my boys have their own kids I won't be as close with them as the woman's mother will be. Does anyone else feel like this?

Gender disappointment is a real thing and I wonder when I will stop feeling like this. If you were me would you have a third to try for a girl? I would obviously love another boy the same if I did have a third boy. I always said I would have 2 kids and it seems like an easier amount with the financial side and childcare etc but some parts of me say try for that little girl.

I know some people won't understand and I will sound horrible and I don't mean to so please no hate comments cause I feel guilty enough feeling like this as I know I shouldn't but I can't turn my feelings off.

I express again I adore my boys and wouldnt change the world for them and love them to pieces. I love how boys are so close to their mums as little boys but that changes.