So yesterday I went to my God-mom house for a cookout to grill yesterday and her adult children were there and my siblings who are also her godchildren. We’re Eating good, drinking patron, and a just having a good time. So my Godmom son He was there and we always been cool. He is much much much older but is in very good shape and health. He could be 25! Him, me, and my auntie (Godmoms daughter who I call my auntie) were all supposed to go to club last night for reggae night. Auntie got to turnt and went home to go to bed. So it was just mysef and we will call him Adam. Adam has always been a player all his life. So we in the club kicking it and having some more drinks. He keep gazing at me and was like had anyone anyone told you you have a cool vibe. In my head, I’m like here this man goes already crushing on me. Mind you he is family like damn near my uncle 🤦🏾‍♀️🤦🏾‍♀️ then he starts getting close and grabbed my neck and kissed me 🤦🏾‍♀️🤦🏾‍♀️ at this point I’m like yeah we are drunk we have to go. So I call us a uber back to my Godmoms house. It’s a little after midnight and everyone in her house is sleep so he can’t get in and he was supposed to stay at Aunts house but we know she’s knocked tf out. So he was like can I just stay on your couch. I’m like okayyyy 😭 we get in and we’re supposed to watch a documentary, sike, we on the floor and then in my room. I kept telling him we shouldn’t be doing this. He was like yea but it’s ok 🤦🏾‍♀️ we had sex a few times last night. I feel guilty and conflicted all at once. We also did not use protection and I’m on my cycle which was light. I did take a plan b just in case