I want a baby and don’t want to tell him.

We lost our first last year. He was a stillbirth. We’ve been together 5 years and we’re in our 20s we still live with our parents. (We did live on our own when I was pregnant but losing are son we fell apart) were so happy rn and the past few days I realized how well things are going and yes we’re young and he’s one to get everything perfect before marriage and a family and it frustrates me. Anyone going threw this cause I’m jumping out of my skin.