Bad mom

Sometimes I let him cry. Sometimes I put him to bed early. Sometimes I sit him in my lap while I watch my show. Sometimes I play on my phone when he’s napping on my chest. Sometimes I drive around aimlessly because he fell asleep while I was running errands and I just want the peace and quiet to last a bit longer...

Sometimes these things make me feel like a bad mom, but....

I let him cry after hours of holding him and I just have to get at least one chore done. I put him to bed early because he had a hard time with naps and he is overly fussy and needs sleep. I sit him in my lap to watch my program after reading him a story, dancing with him to seal, labyrinth soundtrack, Depeche Mode, or playing with one of his many toys with him. When I play on my phone during his naps, half the time it’s doing things with his photos and when it’s not, I have to tell myself that’s ok. And when I drive around aimlessly, I still glance at him in the mirror above his head on the seat.

Sometimes I feel like a bad mom, but I have to remind myself that my “bad mom” moves are still for him, and if they aren’t they are for my house and if they are for me, that’s ok.

Just a reminder for any mama out there who is trying to be the ultimate mama and feels less than every so often..