My husband watch’s porn while I blow him 🙄🤬

So sometimes my man can’t cum , and we will usually try all the things in the book , and sometimes it just does not work well lately he has been watching porn while I blow him .. or give him a hand job , which I am not sure how I feel about it , it kinda makes me think like what am I not attractive enough for you ? And the worse part is , is he watches “big titty blond girls” 🙄 which um let me tell you I have black hair and I guess my tittys are okay but they are not super big .. I don’t know how I feel how would you feel about this ?!