It hit me.

So today i had my first ultrasound, and holy shit do i feel like a changed woman. Im so scared im going to be a bad mom, not know what to do, if im doing things right. Little back story on me. My parents got married pretty young and had me at 20. My mom was always present but not mentally there for me. She cheated on my dad with girls and my dad stayed with her for me. My mom was diagnosed with bipolar disorder when i was 10. She feel into a depression and always slept. I had to take care of my sister making sure she was fed helping her with her homework and keeping her occupied, so she wouldn't yell at us. When i was 13 my parents got a divorce and my mom went to psych ward for 4 months. Still taking care of my sister and now my dad, had to do laundry and make dinner. I didnt mind because they are my family and my dad worked an hour away so i was the first one home. Well now heres me married at 20 and just got pregnant at 21. I have such a fear i will end up like my mom. But here is our little bean.