Just found out

So I've been back in WV and finally had the support to start to get my life together after being through hell and back on my own and in and out of abusive situations and relationships for 6 years.

I have one daughter who is now 2 years old, not going into detail but I'm working on getting her back in my care (her father got abusive to us and I sent her to be safe)

I moved back to WV from Arkansas 2 1/2 months ago.... I just graduated CNA school yesterday. I'm working already, and getting my life together slowly but surely and proud of who I am becoming.

Soooooo I I told my godmother I swore off dudes even before moving back. Well she told me maybe you'll start working at the local pharmacy and meet some cute tech guy who will change your mind.

So I went to the local pool right...? And met this absolutely adorable little 4 yo while swimming. Long story short her dad was worried I'd think he sent her over to "pick up chicks with his kid" and I was worried he would think I was being weird just splashing around with this random child. (How can you not!!! Especially when I have my own daughter!)

We hit it off I found out he had been in a bad relationship for several years and had been single for several years and just focused on his daughter.

Low and behold!!!! He's a pharmacy tech!!! Thanks mom for jinxing me in the best way

Welp.... we started seeing each other. Every. Single. Day. Still to this day I've seen him every day, and we made it official and every single time he had his daughter she would ask to pick up her "best friend Alex ".

Well we became official.

Then as our love grew (when you know you know okai....don't judge me)

Well the situation at home changed and things got to where I wasn't emotionally okay anymore. Against me wanting to put that on my bf and after a lot of convincing we moved me in with him.

I've been living with him, he's been great we are doing absolutely amazing and we have talked about more and our future together.

(Not something I thought I'd ever think about because of my past, but ik he is everything I want, and his daughter and my daughter are both great together and his daughter adores me and just absolutely loves me to death)

But WAIT THERE'S MORE!!!!

So two weeks ago I was feeling like shit and kinda questioning what was going on with my body. Sick for no reason. Fml.

So I graduated yesterday (Thursday)right?

Well WEDNESDAY I went out with a good friend of mine and told her I was worried about being pregnant.

And uhhhhh I do smoke cigarettes and I had realized I was not even finishing a cigarette when I usually smoked half a pack a day.... smoke was bothering me, smells were making me nauseous.

Took a test.

Positive.

Yay!!! I think lol but what about being a CNA.... I'll figure it out!

My bf took the news really well, we weren't being safe but we weren't really unprepared either...

So bam! Pregnant! And kinda excited and kinda scared. But I couldn't have a better daddy for my child. And he loves my daughter as his own now.

But my last pregnancy I had HG.... and almost died more then once.... so we are really worried about how I'm going to handle being pregnant this time.

And if I'm right I'm like 6 days pregnant... and I'm already super sick

Any advice....? I haven't been pregnant in over 2 years! I'm scared! And now a CNA!