scared of sex

this might be long but i appreciate any kind words or helpful tips❤️

I always thought losing my virginity would be intimate, a little awkward, but fun and relieving. I got in a relationship with a boy for two years and along the line I lost my virginity to him. Except i didn’t want to have sex and he did and i was crying while he was in me and it hurt so bad and all around was an awful experience. after that i had a really hard time having sex with him. it’s like i lost my trust and every time we did it, it hurt so bad i would cry and he wouldn’t stop. i was no longer comfortable with him. i am no longer with this person. anyways fast forward to now, i’m with a guy i really really really like and i’m so comfortable around him and i have a feeling we will try it soon but i’m so worried about what will happen. will it hurt? will i cry? when will i relax? i don’t want to ruin everything and i just want to relax and feel good and have fun with him. any tips on how to relax or anything im so lost and confused.