Feeling guilty and like a bad mom.

On Tuesday 29 October 2019 at 0330 baby a's water broke. We head to the hospital where I started having contractions every 1 to 2 mins. Baby b was transverse so cesaerean it is. My di/di girls were born at 34 weeks.

They are the most beautiful little sweethearts ever but I feel so bad and can't stop crying because I can't hold them or really see them for long because my body is so weak and sore. I just wish my girls could be in the room with me.

I hate that they aren't still in my stomach and wish I could have kept them in a little bit longer I wanted to get to 37.

Is the sadness just from the crash in hormones? I'm sorry to complain I just feel like I failed them. 😞

Update: more pics!!

Brinley!!

Oakley!

Her little elf ear. How cute is that 😍

Y'all are great so thanks for all of the reassurance!!