Tweaking pregnancy test

The heart-aching realization that there is an app that helps you tweak your test

Thinking “maybe there is a line”

Let me just try back and white

Nope nothing

How about inverted ?

Maybe the original was better and more accurate

I’ll post the one with the most accurate “positive” look

So many woman posting there tests online with that little ounce of hope.

Getting super happy when others agree to seeing a line and trying to ignore the votes of woman who didn’t see the line.

Rather is be being infertility or untreated infections or just plain having no luck at all.

Maybe it’s not my time yet

Next month will my month

That was four months ago

Four months turned into six

Realizing there just isn’t going to be a first baby or a sibling for your other baby.

I missed my period.

Checking the 5 period apps you downloaded for best accuracy

Maybe I’m pregnant

Maybe I’m just irregular this month

Probably pregnant

But probably not.

Tracking your ovulation days

Making sure you have sex on the correct days

Maybe we didn’t have sex on the “peak” day.

Don’t get to excited though because even if you are not “actively” trying it’s still such a huge disappointment

Counting the months to see how far you’d be if that tiny faint line was actually a positive.

Is something wrong with me ?

I should make another 1,000th doctor appointment just to make sure

Everytime I find my self “tweaking” my test my heart shatters a little more at these thoughts that run through my head and for all the other woman who go through these same things 💔💔💔