Not getting pregnant

My boyfriend and I have been dating for a long time, he has kids from past relationships and we’ve talked about having kids of our own but we already have 3 and I love all 3 of his kids like they are my own and I’ve been trying to calm down the baby fever so I don’t annoy you but every time I look at our kids I can’t help but think about having one of my own and I know we’re in a financial rut right now and it’s probably best wait but I’m tired of waiting. I want to know what it’s like to feel our baby that we created out of love grow inside of me and look down at their face and a beautifully created human with both of our DNA staring back at me. I can’t wait for the day I get to claim your last name!