Should I have another?

Im a SAHM of two girls. I always wanted a boy but after have a pretty rough pregnancy my last one I called it quits. Pretty much my uterus is weakened and my cervix was almost out for my body for a few weeks until the baby was able to pull itself back up. Tmi sorry! It did go away and once I had the baby it came down for a few weeks again until I healed and thankfully it went back up and I didn’t need surgery after my uterus shrunk down. Now finally all my friends are starting to have kids and they are all having boys. Im so upset. Im rethinking now do I want another and try for a boy? Do I want to chance my body again and not know what will happen. Is it worth it? Uhh im so torn I really thought I was done I started getting rid of everything. If I were to have a nother It would be soon I would start to try. What do I dooo??? If you have three does one always feel left out? Please help this momma out TIA!!! Please no mean comments