Saddened

It’s been more than a month since I started my full time job and I wish I could go back to a job that has flexibility. I work from 7-4:30 constant standing and running. I wakeup at 4:30 to prepare my toddlers lunch for preschool, and I come back picking up him around 5;30 home and again dinner bedtime. I won’t sit at all the wholeday. It’ll be 9:30 if I’m lucky to go to bed. It repeats for the whole week and weekends no rest either. Groceries, laundry blah blah. I’m never getting enough sleep and i couldn’t spend time with my little one. Husband helps out as much as he could. He works full time to meet deadlines and sleeps very late and wakeup late to get my little one get ready for school. I hate my job because people are not nice. Always question you though you don’t make mistakes. I’m neither happy at home or work. I’m guilty for not been able to spend time with my little one. Every morning, I cry leaving home and I couldn’t able to do this. I can’t quit because of financial and personal burden. How do you mom do this. I can’t stop crying and being depressed until my husband settled down with a good job.