My hyperemesis journey.

Since my 1st ever pregnancy I've developed hypermemsis each and every time. 1st- misscarriged early, 2nd- was vomiting on the very day of my 12 week scan (Valentine's day) to find out I had a missed misscarrige. 3rd- vomiting before a test could tell me I'm pregnant, ended up in hospital on Iv's, had some antisickness tablets and injections which worked and I stopped vomiting around 20 weeks 😊 dd is now 7. 4- pregnancy was unplanned ( got pregnant via the last day of my period which i was told there was a 1/3000 chance) and again started vomiting which made me do a test. I couldn't bare it and sadly I terminated.

5th- my current pregnancy, I'm 30+6 weeks. Planned pregnancy and took us by surprise as we was only trying for 4 months. Started vomiting straight away which really got bad whilst on holiday, the holiday was ruined for me and I was trapped in the hotel room unable to keep anything down and cried alot as I just wanted to be home. As soon as I was back in my country I went straight to hospital and was on an IV. I've tried 4 different types of antisickness medication this time via several routes, dissolvable, IV, injection, oral tablets. No relief. I won't lie there was many times in the 1st and 2nd trimester were I thought about termination and then was consumed by guilt for feeling that way. I could of filled a swimming pool with the tears I cried. But all I've ever wanted is a sibling for my daughter and to be honest if she was young enough not to know I was pregnant or even understand it I wouldn't of preserved I don't think. I have felt like a rubbish mum, had to rely on my partner alot for most of the childcare, spent probably hundreds of hours in bed, had soo many months off work, been trapped in my house for weeks at a time and it truely has been the worst!

So I'm 30+6 weeks now, has it stopped? No 😖 the vomiting has reduced a little but the 24/7 nausea is still there. Infact today I havnt kept any food down at all but I had a 4d scan to check the babys weight as I was concerned. I've lost 16lbs in total so far and I don't have a big bump, I only started showing at around 25 weeks. Well baby is doing BRILLIANTLY! She's estimated to be 4lb 1oz already and is measuring 2 weeks ahead on average from all her measurements. I was shocked but very happy. Babies will actually take everything they need from you. Yes that leaves us with nothing and feeling like we are dying a very slow death but they are good and that is what really matters. 9 months is a very long time to practically have a 24/7 stomache bug, well that's how I describe it to people. It's hard having a stomache bug for 1 week never mind 40 whole weeks. I've vomited in work, hanging out my car, in a shopping centre, in my front and back garden, all over myself, even wet myself twice while vomiting. But the end is in sight.... I am a little selfish and want the baby to come abit early at say 37 weeks just so the hypermemsis stops abit sooner but I think that's understandable.

My heart goes out to anyone currently suffering from hyperemesis, hang in there please. It's not forever, and once baby is here it will stop. Never will I do pregnancy again after this one but I will have my 2 babies. I look like death, have lost weight, and I'm financially broke but like they say... it will all be worth it in the end. I can't actually believe I'm nearly at the end and have survived. P.s I'm shitting myself for labour time though! Why is it scarier 2nd time round?