I’m having a miscarriage

Hi,

I’m having a miscarriage, I just want to share how I’m feeling since I can’t publicly right this on Facebook or personally text someone who I’m mad at (lol) I found out I was pregnant about 3 weeks ago. I was THRILLED. All I ever wanted. I had 2 losses before. I’m young, healthy. So why isn’t it working. Why didn’t my baby stay. Did it not like me? Did I do something wrong? Those are my thoughts. When I went for my first blood draw they said my levels were low. I just knew. I carried on with blood tests had a small slight of hope when the numbers when up to 293 (still low) the next week was the day I’d find out if it was up to 2,000. Went down to 13. 13 was my HCG level. And I knew the day the baby stopped, all of my symptoms just WENT away. People tried to say they come and go. But I just knew. It all stopped and I felt alone again. I suffer from anxiety/depression on and off as it is. ALL OF THAT WENT AWAY when I found out. Now, I’m back to my “ normal “ self. Miserable. I want to isolate myself. I haven’t been to work. Idc about the money idc about it all. I’m EAGER to try again but I’m scared if I get pregnant and I’m scared if I don’t. I’m scared if I do because I will not want to move a muscle! I wanted to share this because I can’t share it to anyone else. Thank you