rant 😭

i’m so frustrated

I never had a good experience with doctors I been years without going to one

when I found out I was pregnant in august I made an appointment for a week later and the doctor was rude as hell, the lady who took my blood bruised me, and the next day at the ultrasound the lady was rude, cut my sonogram picture wrong, and left the room before I could ask questions

and now it’s November I haven’t gotten to check on my baby since august because I’ve been dealing with Insurance problems

now I got my insurance about 2 weeks ago and I been calling all doctors around me with no luck

then I find one for two weeks later

this morning I woke up and right away called the doctors and asked if I could bring my paper Insurance and a picture of my license because I was moving and misplaced my cards

the lady said it was okay

mind you i’ve been stressing about not seeing my child since august so I was soooooo excited and impatient to see what was up

I get on the uber and get to the office and wait because the receptionist is doing her own do in the back or whatever

and when she calls for me I tell her what they told me on the phone and she said “no we need the cards”

WELL WHY DID YALL TELL ME OTHERWISE ON THE PHONE?

So I wait outside in the cold for my uber while crying to my husband on the phone about going through all this frustration with doctors, getting my hopes up thinking i finally found a doctor, and having to wait more to find another one to help me.

now I have to wait another couple of weeks to see my baby because the closest appointment with another doctor is 2 weeks from now. and they can only see me for one appointment before my insurance plan starts and they don’t accept that insurance only the insurance I have now.

so now I have to wait and then try my luck with another doctor after that appointment.

can I just not go to a doctor until I get further along? I can’t handle this stress and disappointment

I can’t even handle my shit right now i’ve been crying since I left the office and It’s so annoying and stressful and sad why is my luck like this

all I wanna do is make sure my baby is okay why is that too much to ask