Crush

This past summer I got a job. And on my very day I saw this boy and I was genuinely attracted to him from the start. That was new for me for because i thought I was gay and never found a guy instantly attractive. A few girls in my life, yes but never a guy. (I’m also Demi).

So me and this guy talked but he had a girlfriend. Even though I could tell his heart wasn’t really in it because he liked me too he stayed so I didn’t. I was just going to be friends with him and then his girlfriend blocked me and I didn’t talk for a month and by the time he figured out that age did his crush on me was gone. I thought my crush was gone too until I looked at him one day and said I wanted to kiss him. And we did, after he was single of course. Four times at this point.

Throughout liking him I’m not looking as girls as much but I’m not looking at guys either.

But, I’m trying to figure out if he’s worth my time as he talks about other girls and has sex with other girls while he kisses me. I really like him but I need some dignity and I don’t know what to do.