My daughter is in pain because of me 😭

I really need to vent about being a horrible mom because I cannot get this off my mind.

My LO woke up from her nap at 4pm VERY fussy. I wasn’t sure why but she kept randomly crying through out the evening. I changed her diaper shortly after she woke up a figured she would be good until bed time at 7pm.

Well she was acting weird all night. Randomly crying. Wouldn’t stay seated to eat. Wouldn’t sit in my lap when I wanted to read her a book. And finally we used our last resort to calm her down, we put her favorite movie on. While her favorite movie we on she stayed in a squatting position the entire time...

Well once 7pm rolled around I got her changed into PJs and changed her diaper to find a diaper full of poop and the WORST diaper rash I have EVER seen in my life. I mean deep red, almost purple, puffy and swollen. She SCREAMED the entire diaper change and I honestly cried too. It was her entire gentian region, her entire butt cheeks, and even her inner thighs.

How did I miss this? How did I miss the signs? She has been miserable for hours and I thought she was just cranky after her nap. I cannot believe I did this to her. She is in sooooooo much pain. She can’t even sit! 😭 I am the worst mama EVER!