Feeling conflicted as a SAHM

I’m a SAHM to my almost beautiful two year old little boy. I babysit to help bring in a little money but often times I catch myself wondering if I should be working. The other moms that I know have jobs and look fulfilled. I’m not saying I’m not, it’s just that I don’t meet anyone or get out or have much money to buy anything for myself let alone put money towards my sons future. We are trying for baby number two and I truly thought I’d be going back to work this year of January but I realized I’m not ready to leave my baby. And I probably won’t be ready to leave them until BOTH go to school. But I just wouldn’t know where to start then. I’m worried about what’s to come...but I’m also extremely blessed and grateful to be given the opportunity to be with my baby boy and watch him grow up..but here and there I do feel bad😕