I'm 17 and I've never been in a relationship. This is barely the first year where I am close friends with a guy. We get along well so I'm guessing I'm good at talking to guys now. I used to be REALLY shy around guys, which is why I never had guy friends, but that has changed a bit. Although I find that it's easier for me to talk to guys, I've still never had a thing with a guy. It makes me extremely insecure how no guy has ever liked me. My friend is always talking about guys, and how this one texted her, she went to a guys house(not sexual), how this guy likes her but she doesn't feel the same. Yet here I am with no one thinking I'm the tiniest bit attractive. I've always hated myself because of my appearance. I'm plus size and sometimes it can really get to me. I don't feel beautiful. Never have. I feel like my friend noticed that I was feeling down and she hugged me and told me that I was beautiful. But I still feel ugly. I'm never going to get a boyfriend, nor have my first kiss. Honestly, who would want to be with me.

I just felt the need to vent.