Feeling a little guilty 😫

I'm ebf, and of course I'm happy I can do that, and I do enjoy it.

But lately all I want is to be able to drink! Wine, a margarita, anything without worrying about being able to feed my baby for a few hours.

I'm not even a big drinker, never have been, but one or two here and there would be nice

I do have milk in the freezer, but then I still have to think about pumping ( I HATE pumping😅) and not taking too much out to waste it and being able to feed her when she inevitably wakes up in the middle of the night and blah blah blah

I just feel like I still don't have my body back! I want to continue to breastfeed til 1 year...but that can't come soon enough