What we won’t say....

Alexus • TTC since October 2017

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***This is not my first relationship, we have seen fertility specialists, we do plan on adopting but we wanna give it a try at our own first just like the rest of you.

My fiancé and I have a 24 year age gap in our relationship (he’s older) and we’ve been together 4 years. We have been TTC for two years and he’s had a low volume of semen fluid when he ejaculates since June. No matter how long we wait in between BD, stress levels, or anything it hasn’t helped with the amount. He doesn’t masturbate either. It wasn’t always so low until recently. Given he’s 46 years old and diabetic he thinks something is wrong with his prostate. We discussed it and he wants to get checked but he also suggested we should stop trying for a baby and just accept what we have now. He also said I can leave him if I want to since he probably won’t be able to give me children and to not put my dream of having a child aside since I am young. I’m devastated. I love him so much and is the only person I can imagine being the father of my children. I’m so torn because my dream of being a mom is slowly fading but my love only grows stronger for him. I guess what we’re not saying is: Should we separate? I don’t know. We both want to be parents but it’s been really hard up to this point and now damm near impossible....