Amanda 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿 baby #4 due Summer 2020

I’m a total mess I’m 4+3 possibly a little further and I’m an emotional mess. I’m not sleeping, the smell of food makes me feel sick and I’m struggling to sleep. I had a CP in August I was 3 weeks, I keep thinking it will happen again. It was the first and only time it’s happened to me and I’ve had 3 full term healthy pregnancies before that. All the tests I’ve done this time around were all done in the afternoon or evening and never fmu but to me they all seemed like strong positives. When I was preg with my last I’m sure they scanned me to get a date as soon as I found out I was preg, but now they don’t do it til you’re 12 weeks. I’m not even having bloods done or seeing a midwife until I’m 8/9 weeks. I need something to ease my mind but no one seems to get that. Can anyone please offer me some reassurance?