I felt so heartbroken when my sister in law came over today with her newborn. I couldn't even look at the baby let alone hold her .I just couldn't. I know it's not her fault . But it's so hard . My son and her were two weeks apart but he had an early stillbirth and it's tough. What made my heart ache more was seeing my husband hold the baby and I just couldn't. Just locked myself in the bathroom. That all felt too much for me