These last three months have been a bitch, so lemme just give you the run down so I can rant properly. My bf of one year broke up with me in September. Having been best friends for five years we agreed that there were no hard feeling and we should remain best friends, which we have. Secondly, my Spanish teacher got fired. I have been. struggling so much in Spanish and not understanding any of it. Having, who in my eyes was a bad teacher, fierd was reliving, but not we are doing a solely online course which I have some how been even worse at.

I just feel like I'm not good enough. I talk to my best friend everyday and we still have lots of fun, but he also used to be the person that said I love you, and took me on dates. I really really miss having that person, that sole person who I could depend on. I haven't gotten over him, and I haven't let him know that either. He's dealing with some stuff too and I don't want him to blame himself. School has done nother but make all fo this more stressful, and giving me anxiety overall. I've been depressed before, I've suffered from anxiety before, but I managed to get out of it. I fell like I'm crumbling again. I don't want to go back again. I don't want it to grasp hold of me again because I know how terrible it is, but the doubt and the loneliness seems to be stalking me.