I’m 25

I’m a CPT (Certified Phlebotomist Technician)

I currently have a full time job at a small but successful known Plastic Surgeons office.

On top of this I will be a first time mommy in April!

I make $18 an hr.

I’m married, my hubby makes a little over $16

I know I’m blessed and I should be thankful for what I have. I just wish I was a little privileged. I wish I had parents that would let me live rent free like most of my old HS mates and I could go to school full time and graduate within 4 years like everyone else.

I recently discovered that I want to be a new born nurse. But school..is expensive! I hate the idea of taking out a loan. A lot of my colleagues and even the doctors I work for are still paying for theirs! I feel like the school industry is so effed up and it just seems impossible to someone like me who would have to pay because she’s not gifted and wouldn’t get a scholarship :/ my husband is working on getting his degree in computer science. It’s all online. I mean I have that to look forward to. Better pay for him/us. But I want the best for my child. I can’t even afford to move out (living with my in laws) which I hate because I don’t want to be in a room with my baby. I want my own apartment. But my job just told me they don’t pay maternity leave. So I’m stressed..I might ya e to give up my car. Which I just got for the first time this year in may! But my husband won’t be able to pay or rent and bills on his own. I feel super down and like a complete failure. I should’ve gone to college right away. But even as an 18yr old. My parents wouldn’t be able to help me out even with financial aid. I’d had to get a job like most do and go to school. And back then I didn’t have transportation to do either. I just got my over my fear of driving and got a lic ese at the age of 25! Lol I got a job after HS right away instead of going to school. I’m only a phlebotomists is because my job paid for my classes! I’m thankful for that! They wanted me to draw blood for them so they sent me to school. But that’s as far as I’ve gotten. Any advice? I just feel super duper low. I’m looking into jobs that need traveling phlebotomists because they pay about $3 more but in reality I’d love to go to school and learn 😔