I just feel miserable, and I don't even get up to do anything. I just lost all of the happy that cane with my pregnancy since I found out there's something wrong with my babies. I feel so inadequate, like there's something I could have done to prevent the whole thing, but I know it wasn't my fault. I can't help but feel so angry. I wanted nothing more than to be a mother, and especially to have my boyfriends children. Its just miserable waiting for the call from the doctors office to schedule the appt, knowing I can't do anything to help the situation.