Advice/Rant

So wanted to announce to SO we were expecting especially since we just suffered a miscarriage in September and it was a scary scene blood everywhere!!! We watched well I watched my baby fall out of me! Super scary but here it is November and well I’m 2 days late, I told SO during our night drive let’s grab a test. He immediately shuts me down and just says “wait a few more days”, I went on tell him, “I know my body and my periods are consistent not too mention I just had a normal cycle last month! He goes on to say “if you knew this why didn’t you grab a test while running the streets with your mom” I thought, “um I wanted to go with you but f it you’ve ruined it!” I shut down and told him, “don’t even worry about it” So now I’m just like f you and now I really want a divorce because he’s just pushing me further and further away. He lacks romance, sweet messages, but wants massages, body rubs, etc um be a better SO first off dude! Then for him to just brush this off says a lot but he’ll bend over backwards for his friends and family guess this pregnancy go gimme the strength to leave. He doesn’t deserve me I deserve so much more and better then him!

Sorry maybe I’m just emotional hormones all over, tired of him not fighting how I have all these years! I give up and I’ll raise all our kids by myself I refuse to deal with this type of treatment.

My heart hurts and I’m tired of this we’ve been together for 8 years and marry 6. I refuse to go another 6 like this. I took a test Sunday night grabbed a test and it came back positive immediately.

I’m 4 weeks and 3 days I’ve never kept a secret this long from him and it’s eating me up but how can I?! He’s probably gonna tell me to get an abortion but I want this baby and I’ll work to help right now Ima SAHM. I’m just tired of feeling alone

Advice needed