Long rant...

So my fiancé (soon to be hubby) and I have been trying for a baby since we purchased our house back in 2014/2015. We’ve tried everything and nothing worked...

I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia, carpal tunnel, dry eyes and then underactive thyroid and now narrowing of the vertebrae... all this and after visiting our fertility doctor diagnosed with polycistic ovary syndrome...

My periods have always been regular and on time.. my weight last November when we spoke to the fertility doctor for the first time was 107kg!! My heaviest ever!

He gave me metformin and folic acid to take,...

we had a positive pregnancy test back in August this year but by middle of September we lost it with me having really bad cramps and bleeding for 4 days. I

Roll on to Monday 25th November this year, we spoke to our doctor again and he told me that I have to wait another 8 months to be put on fertility!! I have gone from 107kg to 94.35kg (weighing today) without any exercise and without any special diet or help! It’s really getting me down as with me being 30 now I should be able to have a baby easily. I feel like I’m letting my fiancé down.. now we have to keep trying until July 2020! Worse thing is they rejected me for 5 pounds!!! 😤😤😤

I’m hoping that the weight I manage to lose stays off and we get blessed soon enough, only another 9.9kg and I’m back at my smallest I was when I met my fiancé nearly 10 years ago... thank you if you have read all this.. just needed a rant and don’t want to stress my partner out about all this