How can I ENJOY my solo sesh??

Hiii I’m a little desperate. I’ve always masturbated but never got to experience anything special. It’s always very quick and I never really end up feeling better/satisfied/happy.

Am I broken or am I doing something wrong? I’ve tried porn, erotic stories, humping, fingering, but nothing seems to work. (toys aren’t really an option at the moment nor I have a shower head).

I just wanna feel that special connection with my own body and be able to actually CUM without feeling weird afterwards. Would love to squirt even (it’s the hottest thing in the world for me and my biggest turn ons but so out of my reach).

Aaaanyway your post always encourage me to keep trying but I need more ideas. Thank you!!!!