What the fuck

I have more uti’s than I should this past year. I think I’m getting one. I have ocd. When I do things it has to be certain way. Recently, I showered. Washed my vagina like 19472929x. Yea I know I usually just use my soap and clean between my lips and rinse w warm water, just the once but this time was different. (Also non fragrance soap) but i had trigger w my ocd that if I didnt keep washing until I felt fine I would of had the biggest anxiety attack. I realized 2 days ago. I felt this itchy feeling after a long week of holding my urine at work for the longest time.. I thought it was cuz i had shaved all pubes cause I thought I was going get dicked down by man. Nope. But i wokeup the next day still kinda itchy. It comes and goes but doesn’t burn when i pee. Now i went to wash clothes and i pissed like a hood 3-4 times while doing that. Then went to watch a movie peed 2x before that and while watching the damn movie had to pee again got home I’m here thinking should I just wait one more day or call out and use my sick pay n head to the doc. I just dnt have insurance. And heading to planmed parenthood in nyc is a bitch. 😒

Anyways this is a vent post. Nothing more

Update!! ****

You can use non fragrance soap in your lady bits the lips of course not in your actually vagina. I confirmed it with my doctor a while back. This mainly happens because i hold my urine in at work and at times w my ocd I can over wash and just hold it too long. Yes it may sound gross to you. Super gross to me. I cannot understand the ocd I have w public restrooms. I take up to 30 mins just to pee. I wash my hands vigorously, but somehow i think they are not clean and I see pee on the floor from someone else. I somehow manage to mix the two and rather not touch my lady bits. Trust me I know everything yall are telling me. I just needed to vent.

Thank you ladies who have should support and compassion. That’s all I was asking for. My bf was being an ass and asked if he should get tested, when he knows I’ve had these before. Men can be mean.