Self love,self motivation

I’ve completely loss motivation to really continue doing what I’m doing I’m in school rn and it’s just so hard for me to complete or do anything I feel mentally exhausted I feel as though this all lacks purpose I don’t feel as happy as I used too , this is so much stress.. like I try to think about when I finally find the stability and the future with my husband and kids but I just think what’s the point ... how can anybody necessarily love me ? I just feel guilty and dirty , cause things I’ve done sexually in the past is popping up and being talked about... sorry if this sounds weepy it’s just hard for me to express my emotions I’m trying my hardest to detach from it. It’s also cause I feel inadequate I just want to be pretty I want to feel like enough for somebody one day ...