Jealousy

Back in October I found out I was pregnant and it was my first pregnancy and I was so excited. Then October 14th I went into emergency surgery due to an ectopic pregnancy. It had been the hardest thing I have ever been threw. Thank god for my husband he is the best he is here for me all the time.

Now both of my best friends just had babies. One is about to turn a year old and the other is 2 months. I am so happy for them and their babies are adorable and I love seeing them. They are amazing moms and I love seeing the transformation they have made into parent hood.

But yes I am extremely jealous. I wish that could be me. Today I hung out with my friend and her baby. And when I got in my car to leave I started crying. The first time that I have cried in a while since my surgery. I know and hope I will get pregnant again. But seeing them with their babies is amazing but so extremely hard at the same time. The hole time I’m thinking I wish that could be me.

I’m just having a rough day and needed to let it out. :/