It’s been 6 months - Due date 22 days away.

6 months ago the best part of me died. I thought I would never be able to live again. I just felt so weak and dead inside. Mentally I was not there anymore. My sister was pregnant the same time as me and her baby is here 4 months early but living. I thought I could never talk to her again. I closed myself away for months. Talked to no one. Left social media. Quit my job. Almost most moved to a different state! But I realized that I was just running from all the hurt that I didn’t want to feel and I didn’t want people to see. It’s been 6 months and I’m better as women today. I’ve focused more on myself. Better self care , self attention, self love. I would be having a Christmas baby if life worked how I wished. Instead I have a Christmas Angel that’s preparing their baby brother/sister for me and their both just waiting until I’m ready. My due date is 12/28 and I’m sure it will be another hear breaking day but it will also end.