TTC for almost 2yrs now...

Been TTC for almost 2yrs now for baby number 2. I am trying not to phyc myself out cause I just noticed my period is due today and I have no symptoms of a period happening other than my usual craving for Hispanic food. I have been extreamly nauseous while shopping today and slightly dizzy though and at dinner I had major food aversions. I get like this every few cycles and sometimes will be 3 or 4 days late on a period then she just poops on me! It is SO frustrating. So- here I am, literally biting my bottom lip till its fat and numb with anxiety yet again this month.

My best friend since high school has 2 kids and she can't even begin to understand my struggle and tbh vents about how she doesn't want more. So here I am. Lol It's awkward at times with her and it kinda hurts cause she is like a sister to me. It try not to get upset cause I know better but the feelings are still there.