Has anyone ever not wanted to see people after birth?

Nicki • 👶🏼

Since getting pregnant we both agreed nobody visit at the hospital and everyone can visit when we get home. I am a very private person, and a lot of people didn’t find out I was pregnant until I was about 7 months. Nothing was posted on Facebook, we didn’t share names, and don’t even plan on sharing when my c-section date is (only our parents and siblings know). I have gotten a lot of backlash from family and friends for being so private, but that’s just how I am.

Lately, I have gotten extremely weird about visitors in general. I don’t want anyone to come to our house to visit. I basically don’t want to be around people. Just my mom and my husband, not his parents, or sister, no friends. I got to the point when tonight I was crying hysterically to my husband about how I just don’t want to see anyone after the baby is born. I don’t want to announce to anyone we had the baby, nothing at all! I am very excited to have a baby, and I cannot wait to have them in my arms! I just don’t want to see anyone.

I’m not sure if this has something to do with the fact I lost my dad this year, and he so badly wanted to have grandkids or what. But has anyone felt this way? I am a first time mom, and I fear this is just an early sign of me getting ppd. I do have bad anxiety and ocd and see a therapist 1-2 times a month. But this happened out of nowhere and has just gotten worse. I am 38w now and we plan to have c-section a week from tomorrow.