Help! 18 and pregnant

Hey guys, I’m 18, and just found out I’m pregnant. I’m 2 days late and wanted to test to ease my mind however now I’m just a huge fucking mess. These showed up within 10 seconds of urinating on the stick. I don’t want this baby as I have so much goals and ambitions for my future and I don’t want to have a child with this man that I know isn’t good for me. My family hates him. I’m just so overwhelmed. I want an abortion but was speaking to a few trusted adults and apparently you have to get a scan and see the baby, hear the heartbeat etc and that would make tis process so hard for me. I work fulltime as a dairy farmer and the job is too high risk if I were to keep the baby. I love my bosses and in fact they just gave me a $40,000 horse to compete on in showjumping this season, which is a once in a lifetime opportunity. I have no idea what to do and I can’t talk to anyone about it as my family is unsupportive and I have no close friends. We used the pullout method which CLEARLY isn’t 100%. We also used the morning after pill.... someone please just give me advice or direction. Has anyone aborted before? How was it? What would you do in this situation? I just found out an hour ago so I’m going to sleep on it..