I feel violated

I’m 13 years old and everyone has brushed it off as teenage things !

But it feels like more than that and I just wanted someone else’s opinion....So I Developed a small crush to a boy at my work is 6’1 and I am 5’4 (This will help you understand later). I ended up getting his number and He was a flirt so I just went along with it But he said something along the lines of “what if I was to kiss you for ten seconds” and Jokingly I replied “kiss you back? Lol”, when I went to work two days after that, we joked around the whole time and he kept grabbing my hand to hold it even though I would remove my hand but I brushed it off Until We where goofing off and he Grabbed me and Forcefully kissed me ( without my permission and was holding my arms down) I Walked away from him With tears starting to form in my eyes and wiped my mouth off harshly (I never Kissed anyone and Wasn’t planning To Until I got to high school and was in a serious relationship), I felt violated And just went silent the rest of the time until I could clock out. But I feel like maybe I led him on even but I Can’t help but to Hate myself Because he did that. I Lost feelings for him after he did that and Don’t know what to do or who to talk to. This boy is also two years older than me and I only Have known him for about 3-4 days.....I Feel Disgusted and violated but I don’t want to be Blown off as a “tease”