Dear you. I no longer even know what we are. We were fwb but i said i was done. We go back to 5 years ago until now. We still have sex and later argue. We lost a child 3 years ago and it still kills me inside. About my feelings idk i am confused. I don't know if i want to even be with you i feel lost. One minute i like you then the other minute i hate you and next time i know i miss you. You were with someone else behind my back. I sometimes act like i don't care but deep inside it hurts me so bad. 5 years of bs all i have to say. You can't let me go and that's something I'll never find out why. Do you have feelings for me? or am i still your toy like i was all the time? you say your single i Don't know what else to believe all i know is that some how i feel like i need you in my life. Although I know the right thing to do is let go and move on.