Can I have him back?

So me and my boyfriend of 2 1/2 years broke up around September. We were in this weird “break” till November. I was not taking the whole break thing well AT ALL and honestly the situation became very confusing and our relationship because worse than what the initial “break” was for. (I hope that made sense). Anyways...it’s been a month now...shit blew up and we have absolutely no contact with each other at all. Blocked on social media, phone, etc. So my thing is that I feel like the whole situation was sooooo stupid. We really loved each other and were both very hurt in the situation we just handled it completely bipolar opposite which is why it escalated out of control. I loved him so much and I know for a fact he loves me, as women we know when a man truly loves us. I just feel like I want everything to die down for a few more months then try to reach out to him. Idk if I’d still be blocked or not but just finding a way to maybe see him. I know we do not need to be in each other’s life right now. Even tho the situation got really disrespectful, I believe in love and feel like if we really love each other maybe we can work it out later. No one even cheated or anything. Just a lot of misunderstandings. Am I crazy and too in love or should I be looking at reality of things.