After baby

I knew postpartum was going to be rough, but I never imagined this rough. It's really hard to not think negatively about your body. Between my horrible stretch marks, my 45 lbs weight gain, having no clothing that fits (including my winter coats and I live in Canada), heavy boobs, hemorrhoids, nipple pain, all the blood (does it ever stop??)and stitches it's wild. Everytime I shower it's a struggle. I keep trying to remind myself that I just birthed a human but it's real hard on my self esteem.