Single 4 months

Just got out of a 10 year relationship 3 kids same man we hooked up time to time and just found out were expecting our 4th I don't know what I feel I haven't told him we haven't talked I still love him but don't know what I should do I feel like it's over between us as much as I don't want to believe it I'm a wreck holding this in I just don't know why God would give me this blessing in a mist of this beautiful mess I'm in