Just had an ultrasound done today in regards to my very irregular cycles and essentially lack of periods most of the time. The doctor said both ovaries look very clearly like you would expect them to look if I had PCOS, so I’m going back for a fasting blood draw Monday morning.

Despite knowing plenty of women are able to have successful pregnancies with PCOS, hearing that when doctors for years have told me nothing is wrong and I’ll eventually regulate and be totally fine etc etc etc has me an emotional wreck. I’m so mad at all those doctors for not listening to me, and I’m so scared I’m not going to be able to get pregnant at all, and I don’t even want to talk to my husband because he has a daughter from before we met and it just makes it feel like he has no idea what I’m going through because even if I never get to have a baby he already got to (which I know isn’t fair or rational btw, I just can’t help feeling that way right now).