God Has The Final Say!

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When I was 16 y/o it was the very first time infertility had ever been spoken my way. The guy I lost my virginity to wasnt truthful with me and I paid the price. My body, paid the price. At that age however, having children wasnt on my mind at all so it didnt really hit me then. Fast forward to around 18-19 and I go back to the doctor due to some complications and again I had to hear, having children may not be in my future. At this time though, I was paying attention. It stung a little. My high school bestfriend had a baby and naturally baby fever came my way but still I wasnt ready so I brushed it off. In 2014, I was ready. My body however, wasnt. I was in a relationship and my partner was ready. We had the money. We had the space. We were ready. We tried and nothing. Tried some more and nothing. I went back to the doctor and was told bluntly, I have fibroids on my uterus, so conceiving a child, wasnt something I could do. I got depressed. I cried. ALOT! Why me?! What did I do?! Ive never mistreated a child. I never mistreated ANYONE! Why wasnt I able to have the one thing I want so bad. My relationship ended April 2019. 5 years. I met someone. June 2019 my period is late. 1 days. 3 days. 5 days. 14 whole days. Could this be it? Maybe i should go to the doctor. Doctor appointment set for Tuesday. Monday , the day before, my period comes. Im devastated. Fast forward. Im 26 now. 10 years later. Monday 12/23/19. My period is 3 days late. I hadnt even noticed. I feel the cramps tho. It should be coming. Why wouldnt it. Its not like I can get pregnant right? 12/26/19. Something directed me to the pregnancy test aisle in Walmart. I stare at them and laugh. Girl bye LMAO you know good and well. But just buy one to shut that voice up in your head. Its positive. What?! No way!! 12/27/19. Take another just in case. NO! TAKE 2! Both positive?! Wow! Really?! 12/28/19 Take one more. Positive?! I cry. I scream. I pray. I Thank God! GOD HAS THE FINAL SAY! Dont let ANYONE tell you what your body cant do. God has the final say. Im praying now for my health. Im praying for my baby to stick. Im praying for any woman who is trying. Any woman who felt what ive felt. Youre loved. Your time WILL come. God Bless You. And thanks for reading. Miracle baby coming Sept 2020 💕