21 and no baby

For most of my life I was always told how to avoid pregnancy and FEARED becoming pregnant. Now I’m 21, engaged, and can’t get pregnant. We’ve been trying for 8 months now. I’m heart broken.

I work in the medical field and honestly my heart breaks everytime someone comes in accidentally pregnant or upset about it. I’m so jealous I just wish I could show them my feelings when I see the NEGATIVE again.

I just want my baby 😩 I crave the pregnancy, the life growing in me, the bond it will create between my fiancé and our baby. I want the sickness, the pain, the uncomfortableness, the big belly, the stretch marks. All of it. I want it sooo bad it hurts.