I know I need to call my doctor. I will be doing that tomorrow (to sensitive to call on my lunch break)... but I've had an utter lack of sex drive.

It started with my first miscarriage 5 years ago. Then dropped drastically when I got on the depo shot. I'm thinking it may be hormonal mixed with PTSD now because after my second and third miscarriages (2018 and 2019) sex feels medical. Even when I do get turned on (which is almost never and often only during peak days of ovulation... which is frustrating since were taking a break from ttc) sex feels almost medical, and uncomfortable. Things are too sensitive and not sensitive enough at the same time.

I still want to please my husband. I'll give him sexual gestures like handjobs and sometimes full on sex but I don't enjoy it anymore. My husband is frustrated (though understanding) because a decent part of his pleasure comes from pleasuring me and hearing me enjoy it. Which I dont anymore, no matter how hard he tries. He doesnt want to have sex with me unless I'm turned on. I used to pester him for sex daily, multiple times a day.... now we have sex once every several weeks if we get a lucky time that my hormones match up with his availabiltiy.

Anyone go through something like this? I'm pretty sure it's a mix of things both mental and hormonal. It's frustrating because I like seeing him pleased but I'm having issues with having sex be uncomfortable.