Miracle love💛

Soooo for years I’ve thought i wouldnt be able to have my own, a couple weeks ago i was surprisingly told i was ONE WEEK pregnant in the ER, i went for abdominal pains that were just terrible, apparently it was a cyst i have, and a bad uti (I frequently get those sadly, if anyone has tips for those during pregnancy PLS LMK) ..... but woah 😳 My feelings on being pregnant we’re confusion, happiness, but scared mainly, and that’s because about two years ago i had a car accident with a couple bad injuries... (internal bleeding in my colon, spinal compression fractures that almost left me paralyzed supposedly & chest fractures) i was also in a second surgery 6 months later for a bowel obstruction that almost left me with a bag on my stomach.. thank god i was okay after all of that & no stomach bag! I was told also though that I probably wouldnt be able to give birth to my own seed one day, but I didn’t worry because before my accident i tried having kids as well & nothing 🤷🏻‍♀️ i am so thankfulllllll, but im terrified because of all my health issues.. im not sure how im going to go through it. I was diagnosed major depressive, not bipolar but i know i am, my moods have always been all over the place... ive noticed with the pregnancy its wayyyy worse though, not the depression though, thats gotten a bit better regardless, but im still working on it. Anywho, today i am 3 weeks pregnant 🤰🏻😭 sometimes i don’t believe it, i pray daily for a healthy baby & pregnancy, i want a girl but whatever comes im grateful of course... i really worry but i do my best to just think positive. Monday is my first appointment with the obgyn, i really hope i get to see the small little sac 🙏🏽😩 i want to take that little picture home with me and just look at it everytime im depressed so i can make myself happy, i did take my first pregnancy test after the ER (12.27.19) just because i didn’t believe it & ive been holding onto it, but i was told the lines end up disappearing so i took a picture to have forever.... I havent told many people because a lot of people hate & throw bad luck (mal de ojo) on people & since i thought i could never have my own, im really just trying to protect it as long as i can.. buttttt oh man, felt good to write all this.